when i lost my dad, i lost everything..
now i try to keep what i have left...
and try to get what i used to have...
seems to be impossible..
no man could love me like my dad did..
maybe what i need is just to grow up..
and act like an adult..
.. and wake up .. face the reality..
its soo stupid.. and im stupid!!
i hate that...
i should be walking like other people..
.. maybe i do walking.. but im walking alone..
and these people who are walking next to me..
are soo nasty and bothering..
stupid people!!.. and stupid me.. !!
i shouldnt let them bother me!!..
i just wanna be happy...
my dad was funny and annoying..
the most annoying person in this world..
he liked to tease me trying to piss me off..
.. but when my dad happy.. it made me happy too..
.. i miss my dad...
i was never run to my dad when something bad happened to me..
.. but when my dad died.. it was like i lost the center of my world..
when the world is spinning.. i got bothered, and i feel alone..
like i have nobody..
i am so stupid..
too stupid to be happy,.. and too stupid to be grateful for what i have now...